Let's give this a shot shall we?

I've been meaning to start this blog for a long time now. My idea: write about all of the movies I watch and compare them to my life. Now, you might be thinking, what does a 20 (almost 21) year-old really have to say about quality movies. Don't they all just watch the newest American Pie spin-off and call it good? I can't speak for the rest of my generation but for me, this is completely false.

First off, I tend to stray from the "typical" films many people my age enjoy. I've been watching film noirs and the best in classic cinema since I was about 5... no joke. My dad is a huge fan of black and white films so that's what I've grown up on. Movies are really a huge part of my life and I know more about them than many 50+ year olds probably do.

You have no idea how many movies I watch... no idea. On average, when I'm not super busy with school, it's probably about 5 a week, with some tv series mixed in for good measure. And these movies range from 40s film noirs, to silents, to the latest blockbuster, to an 80s B pic that should have never been made. I will honestly watch absolutely anything and everything... once.

I'll probably get into my background more later but basically my ultimate goal is to attend film school after I graduate with my undergrad in magazine journalism.

This idea was originally spawned by my now ex-boyfriend Rob who thought I needed an outlet for my movie obsession. Well, he's gone but the idea stuck.

So why start it now? Well today I was watching Sex and the City: Season 1. Yes, yes... I know this isn't a movie but whatever I watch TV Series too. I've only ever watched a few random episodes on TV but when Netflix recommended it, I said what the hell, lets watch every season and see what all the fuss was about. Turns out this was a good idea. "Sex and the City" is pretty much my life (minus NY and being able to spend 400 dollars on a pair of shoes) right now in my newly single status.

I've never been single for more than 3 months since I got my first boyfriend at 16 as a Junior in High School. That's all about to change. I'm currently on the six month challenge with a friend to go 6 months without a serious relationship. It's been a few weeks now and so far so good. I LOVE the single life.

Back to SATC. I realized while watching the first 4 episodes that the feelings while being single are pretty universal. You might like it but at the same time it sucks. You may feel independent but at the same time, I'm starting to realize that the feeling of independence and the feeling of loneliness aren't far apart.

In the first episode, Carrie talks about having sex like a man. No strings attached, no emotion. You have sex and that's it. Well, without knowing it, I've been trying that out the last few weeks with what I have now deemed my "perma-hookup" buddy. Part of me feels like it's working and the other part is just waiting for me to get upset about something and break down and realize I want more with him. I know I want more... eventually. For now I'm good, but I'm just waiting for some switch in my brain to flip the wrong way. That's how it usually seems to happen.

Well, the blog is started. It might be a little "ranty" but I think it will get more form as it goes on.